14 February, 2017 | St. Valentine’s Day
Today, I am filled with doubt and fear. The world is filled with so many distractions, and I feel I just can’t bear this sense of hopelessness and confusion. There are so many of us working hard just to survive. So many in search of purpose and meaning. The doubts of change are overwhelming.
I mention my hopelessness as though I have already given up. But, because of you, I refuse to give in to the darkness. Because of you, I still believe. You inspire me.
The sweet sound of your music soothes my soul, lifts me up, and moves my body to dance. With you I feel joy, and I feel free!
The colors you paint for me go deep inside of me, and I am able to reflect on intimate parts of myself that no one else but you can see or touch. I need you.
And you are so brave. When you stand on stage in front of so many people without shame or ego, under those big bright lights, I know you have done it all just for me. Your beautiful creations bring me to tears and your vulnerability gives me the freedom to laugh out loud. You understand me.
And your words. Oh, how you speak to me! I want to listen. Your words take me on journeys I could not have imagined without you. Your stories tuck me in at night, and your poems wake me in the morning with the motivation to face the day head on and without fear.
Yes, all that you are gives me hope. Because of you I see light and beauty. When I am with you I am swept away from unwanted distractions, and even the ugliness of the world makes sense to me then.
With you I feel again. I feel connected to myself and to others. I feel like me…human. I am alive!
Surely, you must already know of my love and devotion.
On Valentine’s Day it is customary to shower the ones we love with chocolates and flowers. I know you need more than these simple luxuries. So, dear one, my gift to you is all of me.
Take all of me, and use my heart, its pain and its joy, for your inspiration. And I beg you, never leave me.